Man, this is really deep. I'm sorry for your loss and I hope and pray others don't go through what you went through. Loss is a serious thing man and it affects a lot of people. Gave you a follow, I really like the ant lady. Hope to see more of her.
Also, the way that every art post you make always have some personal description about said piece is literally what I do also so, it's real nice to see someone who's like that.
Stay strong king/queen 👑